OverFlow: How Can We Make Life Worth Living When There's Not Enough Time to Live?
This week was DIFFICULT. At least for me.
OverFlow is what happens when I overthink, overflow, and over-everything. When my feelings have nowhere to go, I write about them.
This week was DIFFICULT. At least for me.
I know I should start being more conscious of things that might help me with planning and doing things, but I still find it difficult to keep a lot of different things going on in my mind! How do people do it? On top of work, chores, self-care, my medication, my marriage, and my dog — I really find it difficult to focus on anything else. But I’m trying. And that’s a start.
Astrology and How It Affected This Week
I tried getting rid of non-productive habits this week — such as snacking indiscriminately and playing weird games on my phone. I also tried getting back into habits that used to make me feel good — like counting calories, walking for fitness, meditating, and reading cards for myself. I used a habit-tracking app.
But this week was the worst time to do this. What did you try to do this week? How did it go? I’m trying to understand my failures this week — and how they’re not actually failures, but unsupported ideas — and I’ve landed on astrology to help me.
The Moon: Emotions and Behavior
The Moon is waning until the 13th when it’ll be the New Moon. What was I thinking? I was trying to reset my Cancerian system during a time when the Moon isn’t even around. This is considered an unfavorable period for new beginnings — for everyone.
The Sun: Life and Consciousness
On top of the waning Moon, the Sun is currently in Pisces — so everyone is motivated to dream and feel and imagine, and not necessarily DO things. YES, Pisces brings with it selfless love and empathy. But its shadow brings self-pity and passivity and that feeling of being victimized by life.
Mars: Courage and Confidence
Mars is also in Gemini until the third week of April. As the planet — in astrology — signifies courage and confidence, I think it does affect beginnings and steps to improve yourself.
While Gemini means that Mars will be more flexible and versatile, it also means that there will be much less focus and determination to do things. Gemini might also diversify where that courage and confidence goes — making anything we begin multiply into many different aspects and just make the whole effort scattered and ineffective.
What I Actually Accomplished This Week
I’m writing this on the eve of Friday, March 12. And you know what? I’m proud of myself for getting through this week, even though I didn’t perform as well as I thought I would.
Taking Pictures of Loaf
I was very successful in maintaining this thread on Twitter:
Posting on Instagram
I applied to several jobs this week, and I realized that I still needed to update my social media — even though I don’t really want to talk about what happened to me — because future employers will always check on my internet footprints. So I went back to posting on Instagram.
Getting Used to Ko-fi Tips
FINALLY, this week I moved ko-fi tips from PayPal to my personal bank account. I was THIS CLOSE to refunding them because I d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶b̶e̶l̶i̶e̶v̶e have a hard time believing that my writing is worth tipping. Thank you to everyone that’s tipped me! I’m trying my best to write more. I AM MOVED BY YOUR SUPPORT.
Realizing That There’s Not Enough Time to Do Everything
This is a HUGE one. I think the epiphany came to me the night after I decided to work 12 hours voluntarily. YES, I was getting paid for that work but it was brutal. I didn’t wash my face, I didn’t go out for a walk, I didn’t even count my calories on that day. My brain and my body were too tired from work.
When people say they have time to do everything and that scheduling is a conscious choice, I think what that means is that they get paid more than I do. They can turn down extra work and say, “HEY! I need time FOR MYSELF.” I don’t think I can do that. I don’t have the savings OR the salary to do it.
What I Am Doing Next Week
I’ve been thinking a lot about this newsletter. And I think I want to send out more content! I’m probably going to work on writing more stuff next week. There’s a lot of you following me now, and I feel like just talking about my life is a little limiting. I have a lot of ideas, but I don’t know what everyone would be interested in reading from their inbox.
And AFTER that — I guess I’ll try again. Habits need repetition to form, right?
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