Just Me Being Me: Life Update! What's Been Happening?
Most of my readers ask for this, but nothing really goes on in my life—until the last two weeks, it seems.
Just Me Being Me is literally just me being me, living my life outside my comfort zone when it happens as it happens. Since I’m a dedicated introvert, this doesn’t happen much, which makes it doubly interesting when it does.
Life hasn’t been amazing. The way I explain it to my therapist is that we’ve had to do a lot of adulting in the past two weeks—but that’s not really true. We’ve been this busy before. But, perhaps, I’d never experienced having so much to do when I didn’t feel up to doing much. Feels a bit like burning a candle right down to the last of its wax.
20th: Loaf’s Neutering Surgery
I don’t know about you, but I would love to relax on April 20. It just doesn’t seem like a day to be doing work and errands. Be that as it may, we did have something planned for this day.
On Monday, the 19th, Raf took Loaf to the vet because we’d been noticing that Loaf’s been constipated. I thought he’d just be prescribed laxatives. But guess what? Apparently, he had an enlarged prostate that was pressing up against his insides—that’s what was causing his constipation. So, instead of waiting until he was completely healthy before getting him neutered, the vet suggested Loaf get neutered ASAP. The closest appointment time available was on the 20th.
You’d think that taking Loaf to the surgery would be the end of it if you weren’t a pet owner. Of course, this situation changes everything! We were worried about him the entire day and when we got him back, we watched him and kept him company so he wouldn’t do anything to hamper the healing of his wound. Loaf also has to wear an inflatable collar for two weeks.
On top of all of this, we still needed to do his three-times-a-day set of six eye drops for his blindness from the tick-borne disease he just recently recovered from.
22th: Second Shot of the Pfizer Vaccine
Any time I know I’m going to be the only brown person—or one of the few—in a place, I get really anxious. It might be because of the rise in Asian hate crimes recently—something I’m still not really processing correctly. It does get a physical reaction out of me. I hold my breath constantly and I can’t help but try to visualize the easiest way to get out and get gone, even when I’m in conversation.
But when we got our second shots at Anthem in Henderson, I didn’t feel that at all. Most of the volunteers were white, and I thanked all of them for being there. I got my second shot and waited 15 minutes before leaving, and I felt safe the entire time.
It was great to feel physical and emotional safety on my way back to the car. Wow! Afterward, Raf and I went to Madhouse Coffee and we both ordered our comfort breakfast: lox and cream cheese on an everything bagel, plus a peanut butter and chocolate mocha. We still used our masks when we picked up the food at the drive-thru window and still ate it in the car, though.
26th: Pink Full Moon in Scorpio
On this Monday, I found out that I’d gotten a freelancing gig that I was hoping to close—I even did a bit of manifestation magick for this during the last new moon.
It was the first full moon I’d experienced as a practicing which—excuse this affectation of using which as a pronoun because I don’t feel comfortable calling myself a w~i~t~c~h—and it was an excellent time for me to start traditions and rituals and also try out some spells.
I ended up creating my first spell jar—for self-love—and a couple of charms. Two were protection charms, while one is meant to point in the right direction and keep me from getting lost. I’ve been using them since and I haven’t felt unprotected or lost yet.
But when I pulled tarot cards for myself, my intuition spoke to me and told me that things weren’t going to be great currently and in the near future. Since then, I’ve just been trying to remain positive.
I can’t control the world, but I can control how I react to it! My working theory right now is that the cards knew I was going to start my period early—I think the vaccine shot messed up my menstrual cycle. I’ve been hungry, bloated, tired, and in pain for the past few days. My next Depo shot isn’t until May 3, Monday.
27th: 11th Wedding Anniversary
Raf had a lot planned that we ended up not doing because we had to go out with Loaf in tow. But our anniversary date was still fun!
We tried a new breakfast place and we both had eggs benedict. Raf took me to different shops so I could shop for witchy and cutesy things. Then we had ramen for dinner—when we were in the Philippines, this was traditionally how we celebrated our anniversary—before catching “Pretty Woman” at the Snappy Burger drive-thru.
It was my first time going to a drive-thru movie and I enjoyed it! It’s not really the same as I’ve seen it depicted on TV or in films, but it was close enough.
30th: As of This Writing, Right Now
I’m looking forward to this weekend! Yesterday, I ordered some stuff for my altar—including a whole other altar, because the first one really is too small. The plan is to place them side by side. Today, I edited for 12 hours and wrote this newsletter. Now, I’m just waiting for my packages.
What have you been doing? How has your life been? What did the pink full moon in Scorpio bring you? Are you burning bright or burning out?
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